i hate it when i cant sleep at times when i should sleep. and since im restlessly up i cant get myself to do hw either cuz i cant focus enough. so instead lets discuss labels.

the homosexual world (as if it is far removed from the rest of the universe) is filled with labels. and i hate them all. i am not too versed in the labels for men since i am not one. i know top and bottom, which literally mean what they imply: r u on top or on the bottom. top is to mean that u give and are dominant. a real "man's man." bottom means u take and are kinda submissive. the flamboyant kind of gay man american society accepts and rejects at the same time. accepts, cuz u are readily identifyable; rejects, cuz u go against the definition of what a man should be.

lesbians have way too many labels. for one i hate the labels gay and lesbian. if ur straight ur simply straight. there are no separate words to classify each sex. why is it like that for gay ppl? hmm...interesting. anyways. so there are butch, dyke, femme, stud, AG, and many different degrees of each by placing the word soft or aggressive in front of each one.

butches are usually white women (from my experience) who look "manly" because they have short hair, wear flannel shirts, work construction, etc. (notice my sarcasm??) these are the type of gay females society was first introduced to: women who turned to other women cuz they simply couldnt find a man. bullshit!!

dykes...also usually white. a bit more feminine than a butch, but still rocking short hair. more punky than country.

femmes are ur classic females. everything a beautiful straight girl is, except she likes titties in her mouth. this is the type of lesbian straight men fantasize about. they have this notion that all lesbians sleep with women cuz the right man hasnt come along. trust me sweetie, he has. his name is jane and he keeps his dick in a closet. and it glows!

studs (as far as i can tell) are the pretty girls who look like pretty boys. for the most part this is a term used with minority women (in the same way minority men dont use the term gay, but rather call themselves same gender loving). studs wear mens clothing, but not excessively baggy. whatever the hairstyle - caesars, braids, locks - its always looking fresh. they are the aggressive ones for the most part, stepping up to a lady if need be. technically i would be a stud.

AGs...short for aggressives. these are ur females who could pass for guys if their boobs werent so big. baggy clothes for days, fitted hats, sometimes refer to each other as brothas or my dude. they the ones who will mack to a girl, spit that tough game, and take them home. mad thuggish too.

and like i said, there are many degrees to each by placing the words soft or aggressive in front of each. but if ur an AG ur just that...there are no degrees. so u can be soft butch, aggressive femme, soft stud, etc. what are my issues with these neatly arranged categories?? just that: THEY ARE TOO FUCKING NEAT!! no one in their right mind fits into any of these categories. and placing levels on them doesnt help matters. we are ppl...not items of food. simply cuz i wear men's clothing doesnt mean im always gonna be the one to make the first approach. just because u wear girly clothes doesnt mean u dont throw bows. and just cuz u have short hair doesnt mean ur butch, AG, stud, or even gay!! these labels are pointless, arbitrary and juvenile.

and yet i use them. we all do cuz it makes life easier. but for who? for straight society to further pigeon hole us. its not enough for us to be outcasted cuz we like to eat pussy or suck dick. no. we also have to be type-cast. its bullshit. heterosexuals dont go thru this. yes u have ur labels: pimp, playa, hoe, tease, fly girl, handsome guy. but ur either are or u arent one of those things. when ur gay u HAVE TO BE SOMETHING. thats when it gets to be unfair. i understand lables and stereotypes, but damnit i dont fit those lables. last year when i wore really baggy clothes i was an AG; now i wear more fitting stuff so i am all of a sudden a stud. if i wore tight girl clothes would i be a femme? if so, how fixed are these lables if a simple change of clothing can catapault me into diff category? they are not. and they shouldnt be cuz they are unnecessary.

thats my beef for the nite. good nite all. peace.