It'll prolly be mad random, lol, but im just a random guy that goes around checking xanga pages... since i dont have one myself...lol... now that ive made myself completely uncomfortable i guess its time to write what i wanted to write, to you...

Fear... in every bone there is a grain of it... waiting to show its ugly face... those grains are clever enough never to show their faces when we're hi on life... cause they know they will be squashed faster than you or i can say pancake. You are one in a million... do not forget that... you may believe that those who you help dont give two shits about you, but consider whether youve given them the opportunity to care... when they say how are you? you say fine... so how will they know... how will that one dude that feels the same way you do, be able to share your confusion and fear... answer is he wont... ive realized that in life we dont want everyone to care, and when we get mad and think that no one cares, its because of that one person that we do want to care that isn't showing it in the right way, like happy birthday text messages... life has for you what you have given to life... you have given your time, your energy, your love, to both those who do and do not deserve it, and you will be rewarded for that so long as you dont lose your faith in humanity... when you stop giving of yourself, you make a statement that none of this is worth fighting for, when both you and i know that it is... there will be people who we think use us, but in the end those people will remember us for far longer than we will remember them...